Blankedonia Databaseblank mind · numb emotions
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My thoughts became duller, my reactions slower, my feelings muted... I lost the wildness, the spark, the ability to cry freely or laugh uncontrollably... My memory returned. My sense of humor. My voice. I painted again... I cried deeply. I laughed till my stomach hurt.
Cause
paroxetine 20mg for anxiety (counselor/trauma history); on-drug fog and muted feeling; self-taper against advice
Duration
not quantified beyond gradual fog while on the drug; withdrawal then return of feeling/voice
Recovery notes
Tapered despite warnings. Withdrawal: brain zaps, vertigo, emotional waves, dissociation. Then memory, humor, voice, crying, laughing returned. Cognitive pole is duller/slower thoughts, not empty inner speech.
Source URL
https://www.madinamerica.com/2025/04/unmedicated-clarity-reclaimed-voice-after-psychiatry-silenced/

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