Blankedonia Databaseblank mind · numb emotions
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32-mia-two-decades-pssd

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I've felt like a chemically lobotomized zombie... I developed severe anhedonia... I also developed severe cognitive issues, impairing my ability to comprehend, memorize and think clearly... Many days are spent catatonically staring at the ceiling, without any thought or drive to do anything.
Cause
sertraline/Zoloft at age 14 for OCD (on-drug blunting, then lingering off); Lexapro at 18 for depression then cold turkey; later 30+ pharmaceuticals/self-experiments
Duration
nearly 20 years at May 2025 writing; minor cognitive improvement at 8 months off Lexapro; housebound ~4 years; still ill
Recovery notes
Last known still anhedonic, foggy, emotionally disconnected. Transient windows where symptoms drop; most symptoms stayed the same or worsened (chronic fatigue ~1 year off Lexapro). Community research (INIDA) gave purpose but not symptom resolution.
Source URL
https://www.madinamerica.com/2025/05/two-decades-of-pssd-a-life-stolen-by-antidepressants/

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