“I'm not sure if what I'm experiencing depersonalization and derealization to be honest. I've had the ruminating dp/dr in the past, but this time it's different. My symptoms came on **after an episode of psychosis**, and i've had a weird feeling ever since. It feels like im no longer human, i **no longer experience a 'self',and haven't for 6 months**. In the past I experienced depression and anxiety/ocd, but was otherwise normal. My brain felt normal and i was just going about my life until psychosis happened. I should mention **Im on an antipsychotic**. I just need help, Im so hopeless. These are a few of my symptoms (the ones I understand and can write out); \-I can't stay in the moment. The present feels blurry and far away, and i can't feel present in what Im doing anymore, like it doesn't exist. \-I have **severe emotional flatlining**\-the inability to experience emotions. These include emotions when you're relaxing, emotions in relation to memories, emotions to events that are happening around you, including grieving and anxiety. \-Brain feels blank and no spontaneous or important thoughts occur throughout the day at all. i can't ponder the universe anymore, or daydream. In the past Id have intrusive thoughts, and ideas of creativity popping in when inspired, but that no longer happens. No inner dialogue that ponders about my future or past or present. \-Cant visualize things in my minds eye. In the past, images would flash in my head in sequence, but now the images feel blurry and far away, as though they can't form. \-Feeling like Im in a dream, and reality isn't real. It feels different than the time i was psychotic, because Im aware things are real, it just doesn't feel like it. […]”
“Currently on olanzipine but trying to taper off it, my mind is blank, I have no thoughts no emotions I don't know what to say to people I'm constantly zoned out. I can't remember anything short term…”
Cause: Olanzapine (Zyprexa), forced on in hospital, 17.5 mg/day for nearly a year (sertraline added after reporting feeling nu…
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Cause: Reddit r/prozac first-person OP u/Philosophical-noob97 (same person also posted r/antidepressants 1rhtx6o and r/Anxiety…
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Cause: Antipsychotics: Xeplion/Invega (paliperidone) injections for 9 months, then Abilify Maintena; she also lists Zyprexa, L…
View case →“I’ve been on it for 2 months. First month of 9mg oral and now I’m taking 3mg oral for about another month. * Blank mind - feeling like you have no thoughts * auditory issues - can’t block out noise,…”
Cause: Reddit r/Antipsychiatry first-person OP u/Smart_Literature2003: paliperidone oral 9 mg first month then 3 mg ~second mo…
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