“Desperate for help here. 8 years ago I was described a low dose of seroquel for a short time to help with sleep. I never would’ve guessed what would happen. A total dissolving of my inner being and humanity that never came back. Pretty much everything that made life enjoyable has been erased, with no sign of coming back. What’s worse, I can’t even feel anything towards this. Just entirely blank, empty, all the time. Music and major tragedies cause no emotion. My brain isn’t capable of feeling pleasure or emotion. My creativity, memory, decision making is muted. After 8 years I’ve tried major lifestyle changes, psychedelics, hyperbaric oxygen therapy, giving it time. Psilocybin seems to give me a tiny glimmer of humanity at times, in a very small but noticeable way, though the trips can be unpleasant and terrifying. Imagine magnifying a brain that is damaged and pretty much replaced by a static tv signal. My entire inner being, my humanity, my personality all gone. Where is it? I have been reading the other users work about potentially betahistamine & ketamine which is the most hopeful writing I’ve seen regarding this specific hellish reality. I’m going to try his method. I’m just wondering if anyone has recovered from this total lobotomy where you are basically dead in your own mind and body for years after stopping the drug? Anything that has helped whatsoever? Desperate for anything as I’m not sure it’s possible for me to live like this.”
“Currently on olanzipine but trying to taper off it, my mind is blank, I have no thoughts no emotions I don't know what to say to people I'm constantly zoned out. I can't remember anything short term…”
Cause: Olanzapine (Zyprexa), forced on in hospital, 17.5 mg/day for nearly a year (sertraline added after reporting feeling nu…
View case →“Trigger warning; bad experience Fluoxetine has completely altered my brain chemistry and erased my emotions. I took it for little less than 2 months. I did not like the blunting effect so I came off…”
Cause: Reddit r/prozac first-person OP u/Philosophical-noob97 (same person also posted r/antidepressants 1rhtx6o and r/Anxiety…
View case →“Its driving me nuts...to have completely blank mind all the time. Its like my brain is not working anymore after all this medications i had., Zyprexa, loqueen, seroquel, Abilify Maintena, Vraylar. I…”
Cause: Antipsychotics: Xeplion/Invega (paliperidone) injections for 9 months, then Abilify Maintena; she also lists Zyprexa, L…
View case →“I’ve been on it for 2 months. First month of 9mg oral and now I’m taking 3mg oral for about another month. * Blank mind - feeling like you have no thoughts * auditory issues - can’t block out noise,…”
Cause: Reddit r/Antipsychiatry first-person OP u/Smart_Literature2003: paliperidone oral 9 mg first month then 3 mg ~second mo…
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