Blankedonia Databaseblank mind · numb emotions
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I got addicted to E.. Took lots through out the year and 3 on weekends… from then on it permanent damaged me and still feeling it 7 years later... My mind is empty.. I have no thoughts or feelings I feel numb inside and no facial expressions, no laughter.no sex drive… Looking blankly at my laptop ... I get no pleasure from anything… How my brain won't even learn.. anything it's just empty..
Cause
MDMA/ecstasy (E) addiction: heavy use over a year (lots through the year; ~3 pills on weekends). Attributes permanent empty mind + numb/no feelings to E; doctor doubted brain damage from E.
Duration
~7 years at Oct 21 2013 posting since the damaging use period; still ill; no recovery claimed in OP posts.
Recovery notes
Last known still empty-minded, numb, anhedonic, unemployed, ruined sleep. Asking how to heal; peers urged CBT/diet/exercise/effort. No OP recovery follow-up extracted.
Source URL
https://www.bluelight.org/community/threads/e-has-ruined-me.697196/

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