Blankedonia Databaseblank mind · numb emotions
Not recoveredBoth symptoms clearreddit.com/r/dpdr

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“I cannot even think ... nothing in my brain, body. I even played good, scored a goal but after nothing, meaningless. ... I actually dont feel anything”
Cause
r/dpdr first-person OP u/SatisfactionKey2708 (post 1wwwlaj): 35-year-old; traced to trauma at 14 with big school panic attacks, then social anxiety and loss of identity. Can't think or create a thought, 'nothing in my brain', memory loss, and feels nothing even after scoring a goal; describes becoming numb.
Duration
Recurring since age 14 (~21 years); current relapse after a 10-day good period
Recovery notes
Had a 10-day stretch without worry where they 'felt alive' again, then relapsed. Sees a therapist monthly. | [2026-10-13 watch] Same-author 1wt4i8h (2026-09-29, before the Oct 3 post): cannot think or feel anything — no recovery.
Source URL
https://www.reddit.com/r/dpdr/comments/1wwwlaj/it_attacks_me_again/

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