252-myptsd-thatguy-ecstasy-blank-mind-no-emotions

“Now, I have NO emotions... I have NO thought process, a VERY blank mind, like you know that voice inside your head? that internal monologue? I don't have one. I don't think ANYTHING at all... just blankness, with no thoughts... Life has lost all its feeling, can't feel depressed, cant feel happy, cant feel sad... just dull and flat, and empty, like nothingness.”

Cause

MyPTSD first-person Thatguy (27 Jan 2012): after bad ecstasy trip + romantic trauma → PTSD hypervigilance months, then another E use → chronic numbness. Unused myptsd.com BOTH (≠ dpselfhelp blankmind23 ecstasy 68; ≠ bluelight rick182 125). Non-Invega; MDMA/PTSD-framed.

Duration

~16 months from first bad trip at posting; numbness phase ~9 months after second use (7 mo after first crash then used again)

Recovery notes

No recovery claimed in OP. Diagnosed PTSD by neurologist; asks forum if PTSD vs brain damage. No later OP recovery update in fetched thread pages.

Source URL

https://www.myptsd.com/threads/completely-numb-blank-mind-no-anxiety.22927/