Blankedonia Databaseblank mind · numb emotions
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the day my mind went BLANK like others state, no inner monologue, aimlessness, detachment… after ten years of abuse of myself with all the bad feelings and guilt and disease and stress I caused myself… my mind broke and it was not just the blank mind I felt an emotional amnesia like I did not now my mother, friends etc. like I used to… it was a complete death of my former self.
Cause
Valor5: intense guilt/shame prayer after chronic masturbation addiction from childhood; attributes overnight blank-mind crash (~age 20) to that praying episode plus years of stress/guilt (DPDR-framed by peers). Later tried many meds/stimulants briefly; not a single index psychotropic crash.
Duration
~20 years at Mar 2017 posts (onset ~age 20; still ill ~age 40 living with parents). Speech/reading ruined ~7 years early on.
Recovery notes
Last known still blank/no inner monologue + emotional amnesia. Brief windows on methylphenidate+Effexor, donepezil+escitalopram, HRT/methylated stack, 5-month orgasm abstinence — none lasting cure. Hypertensive crisis on tranylcypromine. Still seeking systematic trials (escitalopram+donepezil etc.).
Source URL
https://www.longecity.org/forum/topic/91600-anyone-recover-from-blank-mindno-inner-monlogue/

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