Blankedonia Databaseblank mind · numb emotions
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my mind is blank all the time, like someone turned off my brain. I just look at things and I can't think… The other symptoms are anhedonia and huuuuge apathy… anhedonia very slowly progressed to this day when I can't feel anything. I'm dead inside.
Cause
Onset ~age 15 during stressful period; slow progression of anhedonia then blank mind. Rejects depression/schizophrenia labels; docs diagnosed personality disorder. Later SPECT/MRI abnormalities + thyroid issues noted in updates. Many failed ADs; temporary stimulant relief (ethyl/methylphenidate).
Duration
~5 years at Feb 2016 OP; still posting about same cluster into at least 2018 (lamotrigine partial emotion help)
Recovery notes
No full recovery claimed. Temporary relief from ethylphenidate/methylphenidate (hours). Smaller relief from venlafaxine. Many ADs/nootropics failed. Later: lamotrigine helped somewhat; zopiclone briefly restored emotions. Still seeking solutions years later.
Source URL
https://www.longecity.org/forum/topic/85219-blank-mind-anhedonia-extreme-apathy-indifference/

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