Blankedonia Databaseblank mind · numb emotions
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Have no emotions, anhedonia, severe cognitive impairment/blank mind, vss/blurry vision/photopsia, aphantasia... Feels like I'm just a pair eyes with no brain in a broken and suffering body. I miss feeling human.
Cause
citalopram ~7 years 11 months then two-week rapid taper (~Nov 2023); protracted withdrawal
Duration
~14 months off at Jan 2025 intro; symptoms worst ever
Recovery notes
Had hoped for early improvement; cognition/dysautonomia/sensitivities worst. Feels like pair of eyes with no brain. No recovery claimed.
Source URL
https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/forums/topic/32090-alleywayaesthetic-my-introduction/

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