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“Gradually, my emotions began to flatten, to the point of complete numbness. … I lost feelings of anger, aggression, resentment, jealousy, motivation, sadness, empathy. … There are no thoughts in my head. … I've lost the ability to imagine. … When my mother cries, I can’t feel anything, not a drop of empathy. … leaving an empty shell”

Cause

Oct 2025 psychiatrist wrongly diagnosed bipolar; unnamed psych meds ~2 months then stop → rebound insomnia. Re-diagnosed anxiety-depression; prescribed escitalopram (PSSD descent begins after first pill per OP), switched to trazodone; stopped after ~3 months. Off-drug: progressive anhedonia → complete emotional numbness → day-20 crash with no thoughts in head + loss of imagination. PSSD frame. Russia, age 24.

Duration

~4 months of PSSD at writing (symptoms worsened after stopping; still ill / bedridden)

Recovery notes

Psychiatrist said symptoms would return in a week — did not. Ambulance saw only anxiety disorder. OP: damage felt irreversible; disabled/vegetable; warns no escape. No recovery claimed.

Source URL

https://www.pssdnetwork.org/patient-spotlight/victoria