Not recoveredBoth symptoms clearCulture Apothecary with Alex Clark (podcast interview transcript)
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Open original source ↗“blank mind and like a loss of their inner dialogue. Do you have that? I do… Not really. It's like it's blocked for me… felt like something was severed from me… feels like being completely dead on the inside while you're kind of merely just existing… You don't hear your own voice in your head reading. It's blocked for me.”
- Cause
- Psychiatric drugs from age 7 (Ritalin then cascade of ADs/benzos/mood stabilizers/APs before age 10); continuous SSRIs (Prozac then fluvoxamine). Doctor-directed ~6-week taper at 23 → severe withdrawal; cold-turkey later; 9 days Zyprexa adverse reaction ('chemical lobotomy'). Attributes blank mind / blocked inner dialogue + emotional deadness / PSSD-spectrum injury to SSRI protracted withdrawal + polypharmacy harm. Still trapped on fluvoxamine ~56 mg at interview.
- Duration
- medicalized since age 7; severe protracted withdrawal injury ~7 years at age-30 interview (2026); still on SSRI, unable to taper safely
- Recovery notes
- Believes healing possible but slow; keto/clean eating helped cognition some. Micro-tapering (<1% holds for months) on Surviving Antidepressants methods; still intermittent bedridden / cognitive impairment. No full return of inner dialogue or emotional/romantic capacity claimed.