Blankedonia Databaseblank mind · numb emotions
Not recoveredBoth symptoms clearreddit.com/r/covidlonghaulers, reddit.com/r/dpdr, reddit.com/r/Depersonalization4 posts by one person

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Author: u/AAA_battery

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“for over 2 years now I have been stuck in what feels like extreme disassociation. I feel completely detatched from my emotions and personality. My mind is just blank without an internal monologue and an inability to form mental images. emotionally numb and even physically numb to an extent. In this state I just float through life without really being able to connect with anything. Everyday feels the same. Its almost like my body is stuck in a shock state one would be in after a car crash or something. Anyone know how to deal with this? My life is basically wasting away in this state as I cant experience emotions or mentally plan for the future.”
Cause
Writer's own explanation changed over time: long COVID / extreme dissociation (r/covidlonghaulers, Feb and May 2024), then severe DP/DR (r/dpdr, Dec 2025 - Jan 2026), then taking 7 Wellbutrin (bupropion XL) pills for ADHD in Jan 2022 (same-author r/anhedonia post 1tnsa19, May 2026, not logged as a case). Writer-stated cause now: bupropion (brief exposure), with possible COVID contribution per the earlier framing.
Duration
'2 years with this' (Feb 2024) -> 'for over 2 years' (May 2024) -> 'chronically' blank and numb (Jan 2026) -> about 4.5 years by May 2026 (1tnsa19).
Recovery notes
[2026-01-02, post 1q2cthq] No recovery claimed in OP. Commenter joshua8282 said they had same mind-blankness + numbness and advised somatic/body focus. No verified OP recovery follow-up. Same author still reports no recovery at ~4.5 years (1tnsa19, May 2026). | [2024-05-30, post 1d47645] No recovery claimed. Asking how to deal; life wasting away; cannot experience emotions or mentally plan for future. Thread replies suggested antihistamines/hydroxyzine or functional-medicine approaches for others (not this OP). No later OP recovery update verified this pass. Enriched from arctic-shift full OP selftext (2026-09-13). Same author still reports no recovery at ~4.5 years (1tnsa19, May 2026). | [2024-02-28, post 1b2al7t] Harvested from arctic-shift full OP during 20-min Reddit hunt follow-on; recovery not verified beyond OP body. Note: 1b2al7t is the same author's earlier post already referenced in case 218; kept (not deleted) but it is the same person. Same author still reports no recovery at ~4.5 years (1tnsa19, May 2026).
Recovery history
  • 2024-02-28: Unknown
  • 2024-05-30: Not recovered
  • 2026-01-02: Unknown
  • 2026-01-17: Unknown
Source URL
https://www.reddit.com/r/covidlonghaulers/comments/1d47645/anyones_primary_symptom_extreme_disassociation/

Posts (4)

Every logged post by this person, oldest first. Older case links redirect here.

  1. reddit.com/r/covidlonghaulersopUnknown
    “Anyone else have these symptoms? My brain is fried beyond belief and my personality has been deleted. 2 years with this, Life feels absolutely ruined.”
    Cause:
    r/covidlonghaulers first-person OP u/AAA_battery (post 1b2al7t): DP/DR, No internal monologue or visualization, emotional numbness/Anhedonia, blank empty mind.. BOTH blank-mind + numb/anhedonia poles in OP. Unused; arctic-shift OP + discovery lead during 2026-09-13 Reddit hunt. Same author's later public post (r/anhedonia 1tnsa19, May 2026) attributes onset to taking 7 Wellbutrin (bupropion XL) pills for ADHD in Jan 2022, describing chronic 24/7 emotional numbness + blank mind for ~4.5 years; earlier posts framed it as long COVID or DP/DR. Writer-stated cause: bupropion (brief exposure), with possible COVID contribution per earlier framing. Same person as cases 218, 250, 288 (one person, not three).
    Duration:
    see OP; not fully dated in harvest
    Recovery notes:
    Harvested from arctic-shift full OP during 20-min Reddit hunt follow-on; recovery not verified beyond OP body. Note: 1b2al7t is the same author's earlier post already referenced in case 218; kept (not deleted) but it is the same person. Same author still reports no recovery at ~4.5 years (1tnsa19, May 2026).

    Open post ↗logged as 288-reddit-1b2al7t-longcovid-no-monologue-emotional-numbness

  2. reddit.com/r/covidlonghaulersopNot recovered
    “for over 2 years now I have been stuck in what feels like extreme disassociation. I feel completely detatched from my emotions and personality. My mind is just blank without an internal monologue and an inability to form mental images. emotionally numb and even physically numb to an extent. In this state I just float through life without really being able to connect with anything. Everyday feels the same. Its almost like my body is stuck in a shock state one would be in after a car crash or something. Anyone know how to deal with this? My life is basically wasting away in this state as I cant experience emotions or mentally plan for the future.”
    Cause:
    Reddit r/covidlonghaulers first-person OP u/AAA_battery: long COVID / extreme dissociation. Attributes blank mind without internal monologue + inability to form mental images + emotionally numb (detached from emotions and personality) to long COVID lasting >2 years. Same author earlier posted 1b2al7t (28 Feb 2024: title lists no internal monologue + emotional numbness/anhedonia + blank empty mind; body: brain fried / personality deleted) — treated as same person, not separately logged. Unused long-COVID BOTH; distinct from weax79 and smoothwait1820.s. Same author's later public post (r/anhedonia 1tnsa19, May 2026) attributes onset to taking 7 Wellbutrin (bupropion XL) pills for ADHD in Jan 2022, describing chronic 24/7 emotional numbness + blank mind for ~4.5 years; earlier posts framed it as long COVID or DP/DR. Writer-stated cause: bupropion (brief exposure), with possible COVID contribution per earlier framing. Same person as cases 218, 250, 288 (one person, not three).
    Duration:
    >2 years stuck in blank+numb dissociation at 30 May 2024 posting; earlier Feb 2024 post already described same cluster
    Recovery notes:
    No recovery claimed. Asking how to deal; life wasting away; cannot experience emotions or mentally plan for future. Thread replies suggested antihistamines/hydroxyzine or functional-medicine approaches for others (not this OP). No later OP recovery update verified this pass. Enriched from arctic-shift full OP selftext (2026-09-13). Same author still reports no recovery at ~4.5 years (1tnsa19, May 2026).

    Open post ↗logged as 218-reddit-1d47645-longcovid-blank-no-monologue-emotionally-numb

  3. reddit.com/r/dpdropUnknown
    “I have a chronically blank mind and numb emotions, I cant really visualize anything or feel anything. This make its nearly impossible to "work" on any traumas through therapy. What can I do? I dont feel anxious or have access to any negative memories.”
    Cause:
    r/dpdr first-person u/AAA_battery (2 Jan 2026): chronically blank mind + numb emotions; cannot visualize or feel; frames as severe DP/DR making trauma work impossible. Unused r/dpdr BOTH (same user later Dec 2025 'form 2' numb/blank post 1pbpk4t — logged this clearer Jan 2026 body). Non-Invega; cause framed as DP/DR not a named drug in this OP. Same author's later public post (r/anhedonia 1tnsa19, May 2026) attributes onset to taking 7 Wellbutrin (bupropion XL) pills for ADHD in Jan 2022, describing chronic 24/7 emotional numbness + blank mind for ~4.5 years; earlier posts framed it as long COVID or DP/DR. Writer-stated cause: bupropion (brief exposure), with possible COVID contribution per earlier framing. Same person as cases 218, 250, 288 (one person, not three).
    Duration:
    Chronic at Jan 2026 post; related Dec 2025 post says form-2 numb/blank 'for a long time'; exact onset not dated
    Recovery notes:
    No recovery claimed in OP. Commenter joshua8282 said they had same mind-blankness + numbness and advised somatic/body focus. No verified OP recovery follow-up. Same author still reports no recovery at ~4.5 years (1tnsa19, May 2026).

    Open post ↗logged as 250-reddit-1q2cthq-dpdr-blank-mind-numb-emotions-aaa

  4. reddit.com/r/DepersonalizationopUnknown
    “my inner imagination and inner monologue is just gone since this started. I cant visualize anything at all or hear my thoughts in my head before I speak them out loud. also emotionally numb, music just sounds like noise with no meaning.”
    Cause:
    r/Depersonalization OP u/AAA_battery (1qfqq7w, 17 Jan 2026): asks whether complete mental blankness + emotional numbness is depersonalization; no cause named in this post.

    Open post ↗

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